Something Bigger than Me

Hello friends!

Over the past few months, God has been at work in my life.  He has been doing powerful things...putting such beautiful desires in my heart that I know come from Him alone {see Isaiah 55:9}.

Remember how I've talked about my passion for mission work & the opportunity I had here?  Since then, God has closed doors and opened up another way, a journey that is even more captivating than the first.

"The good is always the enemy of the best.” 

― Oswald Chambers, 

My Utmost for His Highest

Sometimes what we think is such a perfect thing may be good, but it isn't the ultimate plan God wants for us.  He has revealed something so incredible to me about my call in this life that I honestly don't know where to begin!

In March of this year I found out about a ministry called 60 Feet.  I didn't know it then, but I had just become part of something huge...something bigger than me.


What is Sixty Feet??  The population of orphans in Uganda is 2.5 million {about 1 million due to AIDS}.  The government handles this by remand homes.  These places are actually the equivalent of what we would call a juvenile detention center here in the USA.  The only difference is the vast majority of these kids have done nothing wrong whatsoever to deserve such horrible conditions.  They are simply unwanted, unloved.  In a place where they are behind literal bars and chained, have little supervision or food, these kids feel desolate.  But God sees.  He cares.  He knows they are hurting and wants to meet their needs.  60 Feet is basically His love in action.  They go into these places and help the kids by sharing the gospel, education, counseling, medical attention, and justice.

In April, I was writing a blog post, and had the 60 Feet page pulled up.  My dad was interested in reading about it, so looking over his shoulder I read again of this ministry.  That night when I went to bed there was a tremendous burden on my heart for the children of Uganda, unlike anything I've felt before.  The next morning, this burden remained.  I set aside some time to seriously pray for Uganda's orphans that 60 Feet reaches in the (7) Remand places.  Every time I thought of them, tears would come to my eyes.  I didn't understand it clearly, but now I do.  That was only the beginning...

{journal entry from 4/9/13}

Today, by the grace of God, He has revealed to me something huge, something bigger than me.  These kids are my special calling.  He ordained me as an ambassador to them long before I ever took my first breath in this world.  He created me to be there for these dear ones, who are precious in His sight, to love them with His everlasting love that surges from the core of my being because I have Jesus inside of me as my core.  I don't understand why God has chosen me--a mere girl of 16--for this task, but He knows.  He has planted this desire within me...it is growing, thriving strongly with passion!  I want to hold these kids in my arms.  To tell them of the love God has for them that they are special and valued in His sight...when everything around them screams: Desolation. Unwanted. Unloved. Uncared for. 
God wants to thunder back through me.  "I am Love, Acceptance, Satisfaction, Joy.  I want you."

Uganda is my call.  All I know is that I would not trade Uganda for anything empty and perishable this world offers me.  I will not pass it up for a comfortable life, with what the world may call happiness at my fingertips.  I want, I desire, I crave the kind of joy that thrills, that stirs, that invigorates me to the very core of who I am.  It can only be found in complete, sold out surrender to Christ.  Yielding all of who I am to Him, of saying "Yes" when He beckons me to follow.  I hear Him calling me, pulling at my heart, tugging...turning my eyes to Uganda and the need there.

He summons...

So I go.

No turning back.

I run...

at the sound of His voice